i need to quit my job. i just can't stand it anymore.
that's a really scary conclusion for me. meh.
but seriously. need to. i just can't spend month after month this seriously unhappy at the end of the day and constantly feeling like i'm just not keeping up with what is being asked of me. i'm a great customer's service person. i'm, at times, an excellent sales person, at other times at least a decent sales person. there is no reason i should end this many days with a very bad headache and feeling like i suck.
so. conclusion: need to quit. need to find something that makes me happy and where i feel really useful.
solution: uh... uhhh. well. okay. 1) try and get my transcript from nccu translated (i'm only 3 years late in doing this!! and it takes MONTHS.) so i know what the fuck i got in debt for. 2) contact my unemployment agency to see if there's any way to see a person who can help me figure out what the hell it is i should be doing and how to get there. 3) just do it.
now, mind you, i'm pretty sure this all will take 5-6 months so it's not like i can up and quit tomorrow even if i wish (oh, how i wish. a kid from my team resigned today and i was so jealous. that's how i knew it's just damn time - it's not healthy to be this jealous of somebody quitting their job.) ...but. yeah.
it's time. sigh. i'll try and find some comfort in that as i go back to work over the coming months. frrr. :/