i don't know what the fuck i'm doing at work.
i know i'm getting a few things done, but how can there still be so much shit left that i'm nowhere near on top of, -despite- putting in 50-55 hr weeks?? i guess i'm just trying to get things to work too quickly and all at once, which is making me feel like i'm making no progress. or maybe it's other people's non-existant progress that makes me feel that way. and i have to be the one pointing that non-progress out and try to see if they can overcome it. sigh.
today, 7 people from my 15-people team called in sick or had a day off. my boss tried to advise me on how to deal with that (doing direct followups to see what was up, among other things) but it was still rough. honestly - i'm such an annoying worker, i'm really by the book and whatever about everything that it's hard for me to comprehend others not being the same way.
and i want my kids to toughen up. which isn't fair of me to say - they're new to this type of callcenter work and just haven't had time to develop thick skin when dealing with the rabid annoying assholes who sometimes call in but i don't like seeing them getting pushed down throughout the day when encountering several assholes in a row, and then have them leave work with a headache. i wish i could lend them some of my experience so that they can have an easier time with it.
and i'm kind of tired of people in general. heh. and am stressed about dad's surgery tomorrow. and my teeth are getting really bad again (they react badly to harsh temperature changes) but i haven't to wait for a clerical thing to go through before i can make an appointment with a dentist. so i keep having a nagging fear that i'm about to lose all my teeth at any given moment.
it's all small stuff. we all have stuff. i'm just having one of those days. not even guacamole is cheering me up. i'm pouting just sitting here, heh. and by the way - dane cook = NOT FUNNY. frrr. and anna nicole smith's son dying actually made me sad. he seemed nice, despite everything. and i don't like miami ink so much anymore because the tattoo artists are increasingly showing their bad sides, which makes me uncomfortable, so that bums me out. and i want tori amos new collection thingy but it's crazy expensive and hello, dentist, so whatever.