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Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008, 12:43 pm

i went to my dental hygienist this morning to have my teeth cleaned. it was my first visit there so i made sure to point out a little odd blemish i've had in my gum, right above my front teeth. the tiny red bit has been there for something like 5 years, and considering i've had approximately 20 dentist-visits in that period (sadly not exaggerating) without anybody thinking much of it, i've never been very worried about it, just curious.

well, the dental hygienist got curious enough to go next door and get my dentist (i have to say, my private dental office is awesome - they're a bit pricey, but i love the care i get there) and they had my front teeth x-rayed. as the x-ray came up on the tv-screen (it's a pretty hi-tech dental office) they both simultaneously went "....oooh...."

"oh"? waaah.

and then they ominously said my dentist would come back later in my appointment to "discuss things" without saying what it was they'd seen on the x-ray. the hygienist did point out a dark spot next to one of the front teeth and said there seemed to be an infection.

anyway, back to cleaning my teeth we went.. and then my dentist came back and said that he unfortunately had bad news. they're going to have to REMOVE MY LEFT FRONT TOOTH entirely!

i started sobbing, hahaha. i didn't sleep well last night (had a really graphic nightmare for the first time in a looong time) and then my godfather dying tuesday night after a 2 year long battle from cancer of the jaw... it was just kind of scary news.

see, they discovered his cancer when he went to the dentist as well, so even though my dentist assured me this was a more normal condition (i had a root canal done on that tooth when i was a teenager, and apparently there's now a pocket that's slowly developed next to it where the cells are breaking down, and the only way to fix is to completely remove the tooth and get a tooth implant straight into the jaw bone), it was just really bad timing for me to get crap dental news.

also, it's MY FRONT TOOTH. i don't want to lose my front toooooooth! i'm 30! i don't drink coffee, i don't smoke, i take good care of my teeth (enough so that the hygienist complimented me and told me my teeth were otherwise in great condition), and yet 80% of my teeth have fillings, i have had two root canals, and i have two crowns. it SUCKS.

well, my dentist is cool, at least. he calmed me down and told me there are several options and that he's going to mull over what's best and then contact me. he also said he thinks we can wait until july 1st, when THANKFULLY the swedish government has just granted a dental care plan that will heavily subsidise expensive treatments (it will still cost me a crapload, but at least not anywhere near what it would cost if i had to shoulder the whole expense myself)...

and he also said he thinks he can do a good job that won't make the replacement tooth look bad, heh. i've always felt good about the way my teeth look, so losing a front tooth really feels... upsetting. even if it's replaced, the line where the gum meet the fake tooth will still look different, so i'm a bit down about it. i don't want to lose my smiiiiiile.

so, anyway. now i wait a bit.

am definitely not telling my parents - they'll probably get very nervous because they too will probably connect it to what happened to my godfather, even though that's not what's going on here.

anyway. i went to work and talked to my boss (and sobbed some more, hahaha) and she sent me home for the day to digest the news. i was so distracted i took the wrong subway home and had to backtrack to get on the right train.. heh.

lucky for me, marp had to stay home a bit to let in an electrician, so he was here to hug me loads and cheer me up. apparently, he claims he will still adore me even if i have a fake front tooth. that's good to know. hahaha. :)

still. boo. BOOOOO!!

definitely spending the afternoon watching movies and eating more pumpkin soup. (marp made a great batch of pumpkin soup for halloween that we froze, and now it's my favourite meal: mm, pumpkin soup and walnut bread! love it.)

thank you all for your comments to my past few entries - i've been meaning to respond but i keep gettin derailed...

eh, i'll be fine. just a sucky morning. it'll pass. hey, at least i have my front tooth until july.. i will make sure to smile plenty while i can.. hahhaa.

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 10:57 am (UTC)

1) I first read the opening sentence as " i went to my mental hygienist", and thought "You know, I could do with a bit of that too". Haha!

2) Boo. BOO. But still - yay for finding out before things got entirely out of hand, and YAY! for good dentists and good dental plans.

3) I think your smile is really nice. I'm sure it will look just as nice after July.

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 11:06 am (UTC)

1) hehehe! i think we could all probably use a mental hygienist now and then..

2) yes, i'm glad i finally asked more seriously about it and had the red bump examined, even though the news sucks.

and if i've understood the new swedish dental care plan, i will only have to pay max 3000 SEK and then only 50%, or 15% of whatever the rest of the treatment costs because the government will subsidize the rest. it depends on how expensive the treatment is - the more expensive it is, the more the government will cover...

so either way, i should be okay. still a lot of money to pay, but good to know my taxes will do some good for me..

3) thank you! here's hoping. :)

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 11:24 am (UTC)

AAWE! wow!!! All that from just a little red dot?! WOW! I am sure everything will be fine! Don't worry too much and call if you need anything!

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 11:38 am (UTC)

yeah - it seems the red dot has been a tiiiiny canal from the infection all along, providing drainage. it never seemed very infected, though, and my gums haven't hurt there, and none of my dentists have ever reacted to it before, so... boo.

things should be fine. it was just an unfortunate combination from being so close to my godfathers death and it involving the jawbone, too.

well, at least it seems my dentist is going for the least invasive procedure if possible - he told me the old school way of doing it would be to remove the tooth + the two teeth surrounding it and put in a bridge with 3 fake teeth! but he's most likely going to be able to do just the one tooth.

meeeeh. 8(

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 01:36 pm (UTC)

I chipped my two front teeth when I was 13 years old and had to get veneers put over them...it SUCKED and I felt similarly to how you feel now. But, they did a good enough job and eventually I got used to my new smile. I'm sure your doctor will do a fantastic job and it'll turn out fine. I do sympathize though. I know how scary it is!

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 01:47 pm (UTC)

aww, thank you - your comment actually made me feel a lot better. :) yeah, i have a few veneers from before and they look great, but the whole front tooth thing feels different, somehow, which is probably why i freaked out. eh, it should be fine.

hope your cold passes quickly!

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 03:06 pm (UTC)

oh honey :(

Sorry to hear about the front tooth, but at least they are doing something about it.. *huge hugs*

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 05:01 pm (UTC)

thank you sweetie - it'll definitely be fine, it was mostly just crap timing.

but hey! look at you! A HOUSE! and it looks cute, too. :D :D

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 04:38 pm (UTC)

your dentist sounds like a really nice, caring guy.

also, i fell off my bike when i was a kid and chipped my front tooth. after root canal it went grey and i had it bleached, but it was still never the same. i finally replaced it with a fake front tooth right before i got married because i wanted to be ABLE to smile in my wedding photos. i know what you mean about the gumline, but it's not that bad, and it's certainly better than having a grey tooth, or worse, no tooth at all!

still, now i'm nervous you'll be staring at my front teeth when we meet! ;)

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 05:08 pm (UTC)

oooooh janet, best comment ever - now i feel total hope. :D :D and i'll try not to stare, hehe...

i actually had a similar problem with this tooth - my brother accidentally chipped the tooth and i got a plastic bit put on it, but the tooth 'died' and darkened a bit so they did a root canal, but aesthetically, it's definitely slightly yellow and with a thin line going through it, so as marp said, i should look on the bright side, i'll probably have a nicer tooth afterwards.

i think what worried me the most was when the dentist told me the regular way to treat my problem is generally to replace the tooth plus the teeth surrounding it as well - the mental image of having three front teeth remove and a bridge put in reminded me way too much of my poor godfather (they took out a big chunk of his lower jaw in his treatment and it never really healed, plus it disfigured him greatly) so i freaked out.

my wonderful dentist said he doesn't think that procedure will be necessary and that he thinks he can do it with just the one tooth so i have hope. he really is a nice man, which is why i keep going there even though it's a bit pricey.

hey, it's april! we're gonna meet next moooonth! cool! :)

Thu, Apr. 3rd, 2008 05:35 pm (UTC)

i'm glad i could make you feel better! honestly, you'll probably be so much happier having a tooth that (i would think would) match your other teeth more than what's there now. you have a lovely smile already and i'm sure it will be even lovelier! i'll keep my fingers crossed for you that this works and they don't have to do any more work.

and hooray about you being here next month! :) i've written down the dates when you're here, but you'll have to let me know when you're free to meet up so we can arrange something definitively. i can't wait! :)

Tue, Apr. 8th, 2008 02:57 am (UTC)

:( I hope it won't be so very bad.

And I hope you'll know what I mean when I say that when I think of your teeth, I think of salad....